Amble, Ramble, Whatever.. - No.8 - the saddest damn thing

The saddest damn thing in the world is not that you get shaped by your environment, its not that you have nothing to do with that, its not the ever existing repulsion of whom ever you get to know and its not that you have no power on any of those things. Is that all those things happen without you even noticing them happening, without you even being aware of them, there in your mind like a silent terror, leaving you speechless at the scene, of you walking home with no one in this fucking city who you even want to talk to.. you and you and the voicemails that you don't even care to listen to. Yeah you've been washed from you.